Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Welcome to My Blog

It took me forever! That's the perfectionist in me, but I'm happy with it. I still want to catch up on everything that's happened over the last couple of months. There's some pretty important stuff I want to remember, but once I posted the scrapbook album, I just couldn't do it. I posted a few things earlier on this site before I had it up and running. (see below)

A lot of things have been much harder now that I'm in the second year without Mark. I'm not even sure how to put it into words. It's kind of like I'm self destructing. I'm not getting enough sleep. I'm having horrible dreams. I'm not really eating very good. I've got a million things I feel like I need and want to do, but I'm only doing the absolute necessities. My kids are my top priority. I'm trying to be a good mom, but for every good thing I do I can easily find something at which I'm failing. I'm really good at that. I'm working on it. I'm too tired to keep writing. My brain can't stay focused.

13 comments:

Shellie said...

Hi I love your blog layout. Love the little butterfly wings with music notes on them. :)

Kairlotta said...

Wow! I love your new blog Marianne! Miss Kesha gave me the link to the blog today! The pictures are beautiful and your kids are growing up so quickly!!!

Downs Family said...

Wow you are so creative, I love the new blog and your family pictures are beautiful. I will be calling you soon to go and play I thought of something fun we could do with the kids. Love ya!!

Rach said...

Hey Mariann,
The new blog site is great! I was so fun to see you guys at the Dino Museum. How was the video? Well lets try to get Gabe and Tessa together over Spring Break if we can. Have A Great Day! The SUN is shinning today!!!!! YEA ;)

Betty Johnson said...

Marianne - I really like your new blog and the photos are great!!! On your most recent post, you said "I'm not even sure how to put it into words". Well I heard a very country song yesterday afternoon that I think describes both of us perfectly - "The Lights are on but no one is at home". That is exactly how I feel most of the time; I was driving back from Tuscaloosa and actually laughed when I heard the lyrics. Everyone says hang in there and it will get better. I hope so for both of us so HANG IN THERE.
Betty

Betty Johnson said...

Hi Marianne - I really like your new blog - so creative and the photos of the kids are great!! Your most recent post on your blog said "I'm not even sure how to put it into words". Well yesterday I heard a very country song that I think describes our situation pretty good - "The lights are on but no one is at home". That is exactly how I feel most of the time. Hang in there - it is supposed to get better one day.
Betty

CWatts said...

The new blog looks so great! I love hearing about all you have to say- you are an amazing woman!

Chelsie (Williams) Watts

gma and gpa M said...

Marianne and Kids,
My first entry to congratulate you on your very nice, new blog, didn't go through. I'm sure it was a problem on my part not your blog. So here it is again-- hope it works.
It was great to talk to you yesterday.
Ask Chase and Tessa to drop an email.
Love, Mom and Dad

Erin Budge said...

Marianne! It was so great chatting with you today. Thanks! It's been a few weeks since I checked your site...I love your "fresh start", especially seeing the new pictures of the kids! Thanks for your good example Marianne and for being so real. I really appreciated your compliment earlier today and wish I could have just said "Thanks!" instead of negating it...I'm learning. From one "trying to be a good mom" to another...You are doing your best and it's not only good enough...it's great! Love you! Erin

Anonymous said...

Marianne,

Don't beat yourself up...you've got your priorities set right. The kids come first. I have the same issues of not enough sleep, not eating great, never seeming to get enough done and seeming to dwell on the negative. But...my kids know I love and support them, as do yours...that's what matters most.

Keep your chin up.

Jeri Sorenson

Stacyrocks! said...

Hey Marianne gorgeous blog, once again I am moved to tears by you and your honest words. I love your testimony. Your such a fabulous woman, be nice to yourself. I've been thinking about you a lot lately.

Anonymous said...

hey marianne!
i luv the new site. it's gorgeous! never quit
*Maddie Giles*

Nick Scott Family said...

Hope you guys have a wonderful Easter weekend! Spring is here!! Yeah!!!! I am so ready for some sunshine and outdoors. XOXOXO
Kesha